Growing up with you by my side was always the best part. I never thought you would become my best friend. While we grew up i noticed that I was doing things my mother should have been doing.. Taking care of my little brother, cooking dinner for us both. Making sure all homework and everything was finished before shower time. Getting us both ready for school, getting us both up and ready for the bus. I shouldn't be taking care of my little brother, and my mother shouldn't be getting high. As this kept going on, i didn't realize how damaging it was to me, until i went to counseling. Who knew that at 14 years old you could be parenting your younger brother? I was attached to him as if he was my own, i was the one in charge, i had to make sure he was getting everything he needed. I felt as if i could take care of myself and him. As you see, this is a terrible problem for a 14 year old girl to be going through. When we got torn apart i thought my life was over, literally! Panic attacks, freak outs, break out in tears. This lasted about two weeks. We were split up for about 3 or 4 months, until i moved in with his foster parents. Where everything seemed to be better having my little brother back in my life! Everything he does is a huge part of my life. He is in love with football and i am so proud of him. Everything we have been through he takes all his anger, sadness, happiness out on the field. He is the best football star i have seen yet! I love him to the moon and back, and although this is still a struggle to me, i am doing much better. He's not only my little brother, but he is my best friend.. id be lost without him by my side. I love you Joshua!! <3
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